Spirals and twist

Sitting outside, looking at the sky. Have no where else to look at but up. Reminded of my passion and love. Heart feels excruciatingly heavy and in sheer pain. Been battling this pain for far too long.

Been spiraling downwards for years. I look to the moon right now. Only YHWH can save me from the pits of hell.

Would He?

I shall write more…… Till then.


Immanuel: God with us

God With Us: Is the everlasting oratorio of the great orchestra of the sky. (Spurgeon 1854)

May we learn leaps and bounds of the name, Immanuel. Sometimes, one might wonder about the meaning of Immanuel (God with us). For this, let’s just take a step back and visit the Garden of Eden when Adam (and Eve) fell. What was actually severed in the Garden? The tree of life? Fruits? Leaves? The garden? The slain animal? Sadly, it was God’s presence with man. The very bond of God being with us. That presence [Word], God with us was taken away and man had to work a sweat. But bear in mind that God is true to His Will and will never deviate from it. He knew the perfect time will arise when Immanuel would be revealed in the flesh and this was seen fulfilled on the Cross!

Let’s start from the beginning of the Bible and travel all the way to the Cross:

Genesis 3: 8 – 9 show us that the presence of God was severed between Adam and Eve in the Garden. Ever wondered why God had to call out? Have you wondered where you are with God?

Here are some excerpts from the Bible to shed some light on the meaning: God with Us

  1. Abraham (Genesis 21:22) – At that time Abimelek and Phicol the commander of his forces said to Abraham, “God is with you in everything you do.
  2. Joseph (Genesis 39: 2 – 3) – The LORD was with Joseph, so he became a successful man. And he was in the house of his master, the Egyptian.Now his master saw that the LORD was with him and how the LORD caused all that he did to prosper in his hand.
  3. Moses (Exodus 3:10 – 12) – “Therefore, come now, and I will send you to Pharaoh, so that you may bring My people, the sons of Israel, out of Egypt.” But Moses said to God, “Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh, and that I should bring the sons of Israel out of Egypt?” And He said, “Certainly I will be with you, and this shall be the sign to you that it is I who have sent you: when you have brought the people out of Egypt, you shall worship God at this mountain.”
  4. Joshua (Joshua 1:5) –  No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Also seen in (Joshua 1: 16 – 17) – They answered Joshua, saying, “All that you have commanded us we will do, and wherever you send us we will go. “Just as we obeyed Moses in all things, so we will obey you; only may the LORD your God be with you as He was with Moses. “Anyone who rebels against your command and does not obey your words in all that you command him, shall be put to death; only be strong and courageous.”
  5. Samuel (1 Samuel 3:19) – the LORD was with Samuel as he grew up, and he let none of Samuel’s words fall to the ground.
  6. and David,1 Samuel 16: 18 – One of the servants answered, “I have seen a son of Jesse of Bethlehem who knows how to play the lyre. He is a brave man and a warrior. He speaks well and is a fine-looking man. And the LORD is with him.”

I pray that people understand the depths of this word and its meaning in your life. This Word existed from the time of Creation and restored on the Cross. It is the most beautiful gift mankind has received, it is a restoration.

Before Christ birth, Joseph (betrothed to Mary) was told about the promise of Immanuel in a dream. Such an assuring promise that God was going to redeem mankind. The Way was being sent for us to be with Him for eternity!

Matthew 1:20 – 23, But when he had considered this, behold, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream, saying, “Joseph, son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary as your wife; for the Child who has been conceived in her is of the Holy Spirit. “She will bear a Son; and you shall call His name Jesus, for He will save His people from their sins.” Now all this took place to fulfill what was spoken by the Lord through the prophet: “BEHOLD, THE VIRGIN SHALL BE WITH CHILD AND SHALL BEAR A SON, AND THEY SHALL CALL HIS NAME IMMANUEL,” which translated means, “GOD WITH US.”

Christ spoke about the reason He was sent, John 8: 28 – 29, So Jesus said, “When you lift up the Son of Man, then you will know that I am He, and I do nothing on My own initiative, but I speak these things as the Father taught Me. “And He who sent Me is with Me; He has not left Me alone, for I always do the things that are pleasing to Him.” As He spoke these things, many came to believe in Him.

Christ had to endure this great anguish on the Cross as He took our sins. It was this moment when God turned away from Him. This was the very unbearable moment that Christ Himself went through,

Matt 27:46 – About three in the afternoon Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” (which means “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”).

Let us not forget that we have the gift of Immanuel:

Matthew 28: 19 – 20, “Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”

At times, one may feel blessed and believe that God is there every step of the way. But do not be blind-sighted by it. Seek the Lord every step of the way. At times, we may be so caught up with work, studies, ministry that we forget to see if God is still with us every step of the way. You may think He is with you but in reality He is not.

For instance, Moses refused to go forth if God was not with him. God promised milk and honey but Moses wanted His presence every step of the way.

Exodus 33: 1 – 15 – Then the Lord said to Moses, “Leave this place, you and the people you brought up out of Egypt, and go up to the land I promised on oath to Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, saying, ‘I will give it to your descendants.’ I will send an angel before you and drive out the Canaanites, Amorites, Hittites, Perizzites, Hivites and Jebusites. Go up to the land flowing with milk and honey. But I will not go with you, because you are a stiff-necked people and I might destroy you on the way.” When the people heard these distressing words, they began to mourn and no one put on any ornaments. For the Lord had said to Moses, “Tell the Israelites, ‘You are a stiff-necked people. If I were to go with you even for a moment, I might destroy you. Now take off your ornaments and I will decide what to do with you.’ ”

and in verse 15, Then Moses said to him, “If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here.

We were created to fellowship with God as a family and His presence matters the most. Everything that we do in life will be deemed meaningless if there is no relationship with God. Are we having a relationship with God? How would we labour if that one word was taken away? God will move mountains to get His Will done. His Will is to reconcile the severed relationship with His creation. Spurgeon said it best in this video:

 Yours faithfully.

His grace finds me. Blessed Good Friday.

‘There in the darkest night of the soul,
There in the sweetest songs of victory,
Your grace finds me.’

Heard these words before walking out of mom’s room. Been wanting to pen down so many things but God seemed to be having His own agenda. Airplanes seem to go missing, ferries seem to sink, political figures seem to collapse and the morbid list goes on.

It’s been awhile since this blog has been updated. Apologies as the final semester has begun and to top it up, a promotion was handed to me. Been trying to swim and stay afloat but it looks like there’s going to be sleepless nights for a couple of months. It’s been quite painful as my predecessor is a very good friend of mine and I had to take over this new role.I know that I should be happy but the word progress seems to be blind-sighting the things that really matter: the little things in life.

Adding on to it, a certain lady from church has mentioned that God is going to take mom away. Had a breakdown and been wrestling with God about it. The whole family grew cold and just didn’t speak. Finally, after two weeks of being under the dark cloud, we came to our realisation that God does not give us a spirit of fear but of sound mind (2 Tim 1:7) and is full of hope and peace (Romans 15:13).

Am taking this time to reflect on the things that matter: Jesus! He came, He died and He rose again. Am chosing to spend this time to reflect and cherish my loved ones: Family. Take the time this Good Friday to reach out to your unsaved loved one’s. After all, He died for all of us.

Blessed Good Friday & Resurrection Sunday!


Yours faithfully,